Wednesday, October 31, 2007

they call me mr. glass

my stomach always hurts, as do my hands and my head. why do i have to be the sickly child in the family? i'm like beth from little women...except i can't play the piano...nor am i sweet...or living in the civil war era waiting for marmie to bring home more scarlet fever germs from the poor ghetto trash down the road. i love that book. i think i'll re-read it.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

i went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb, looking for a little hope

the other day at work i was gripping something and a co-worker said: eww, what's that?!. i thought it was a bug, so i was frantically looking around until she pointed at my right middle finger and told me to bend it. so i attempted to make a fist (i can't make a complete fist with the right hand anymore) and sure enough, i discovered i have a finger nodule. so i studied my left hand and discovered one on my index finger. you know, i was content with my orencia infusions--even though it doesn't work as well as enbrel, but it's cheaper and that's why i take it instead--but now i'm worried.

i sat down and googled
rheumatoid arthritis finger nodules today and found unsettling images of curled, deformed fingers and descriptions that included the words 'pop' and 'freeze'. my fingers do pop. i was just hoping that i would be a lucky one and not get the whole gnarly hands thing...i mean, that's the one thing i'm egotistical about. i have pretty hands. it's bad enough that i can barely write or draw anymore--so much so, that i choose 'debit' instead of 'credit' at stores so i don't have to be embarrassed at my poor attempt to grasp a pen and sign something in front of the customers in line behind me--but i don't want my hands to start twisting. i just hope that is not in the future for me, because i like to create things and it's hard to fucking create something when you can't use your hands.

Friday, October 26, 2007

hot in herre

it is goddamn october 26th. so why is it still in the 70's?!?! i HATE hot weather. i used to look forward to the fall, it's so nice and cool. the air is crisp and the leaves are turning and the kids are in school. now, there is no such thing as fall...or spring, for that matter. it goes from steamy summer to freezing winter. i'd much rather have a longer winter--i have more clothes for that season, but it doesn't look like winter will EVER get here. at least we had wonderful rain today. i love the rain...especially when i'm in bed reading. anyway. i listened to "let it be" from the across the universe soundtrack. i was attempting to give it a chance, but it is awful, awful, awful. i had to put paul's version in to relieve the anger. roger ebert gave the movie a great review, so i'm still debating on seeing it in the theater. i do have a $25 gift card to AMC, so perhaps i'll take myself on sunday. no one else wants to see it. i was contemplating dan in real life as well because one of my favorite actresses, juliette binoche, is in it, but the whole "dane cook is a giant douche" thing may keep me at bay. i should just go with my instinct and see darjeeling unlimited or whatever it's called. i know i'll like that.

oh yes, i am now in possession of all three seasons of the office! love.

Friday, October 19, 2007

orange crepe paper and some halloween candy

i want to move to england.

anyway. i am so awful at returning phone calls. i just realized that i haven't called back people since i got home from vegas. i suck. i don't know why i even have a phone. i hate using it. but i feel naked without it. i'm a strange duck, i know.

in other news, across the universe finally made it to virginia beach. not that i've seen it yet. i was all excited about it despite the fact that i am always and forever annoyed by craptacular remakes of fantastic songs...and the beatles happen to be one of my favorite bands. i'm afraid i'll end up hating it. jenna burned me a copy of the soundtrack (which i have yet to listen to, but i've been listening non-stop to the beatles love album--go figure) for my birthday. this might sound cheesy, but i just think the beatles were kind of, perfect, and having people that can't sing cover their songs is just, UGH. and then, there's the people that don't even know who the beatles are or that these songs are theirs and i'm like: where the fuck have you been?

ok. speaking of my birthday, it was quite uneventful. after 30, birthdays are not the same anymore. i didn't even get a god-damned cake! but i still get excited like a little kid. i just had no pile of presents or candles to blow out or friends to run around with in cone party hats with the little elastic strings to keep them lodged firmly on your 'noggin. i had a nap. wow.

Friday, October 12, 2007

murphy's law

tell me why, when i finally decide to buy those damn wide-leg pants in every color from oldnavy.com, do they reduce the price by 1/2 the very next day?

i'm getting a refund. oh, yes, i will
get a refund.

p.s. IT'S FINALLY GETTING COLD! yay for jacket weather.

update: i got my damn refund. hells yeah.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

where are the turtles?

i'm back from vegas. i've been back since my birthday (october 2), but have been too lazy to write anything on here. i'm the only one who reads it anyway. so we completely forgot about the liberace museum. i know, i know...i hang my head in shame. i actually did drink there. how can one resist $2 jello shots? especially lime with tequila? yum. we had a lot of fun. i wasn't expecting to, because vegas has never been a dream destination of mine other than to get married there by elvis on april fool's day. it's expensive, but there's so much to do. next time, i will be sure to hit up the liberace museum. i want a souvenir glitter cape.