Wednesday, March 9, 2011

all the rusted signs we ignore throughout our lives, choosing the shiny ones instead

is it so wrong in this day and age to be single? i find people look at me with this sad note in their eyes when they find out i'm not dating anyone. sure, i'd like to have a partner in crime to go to dinner and the movies and an occasional bang, but to me, it's not necessary. i'm not saying i'm not lonely sometimes, but i don't define my life by dreaming about finding a man...well, i dream of finding james franco, sam rockwell, RDJ, daniel craig or javier bardem but that's different ;P maybe i'm just an odd duck. i don't know.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

battered and torn still i can see the light

i have rheumatoid arthritis (RA). lately, it's been kicking my ass. i tend to not speak about the disease because most people just hear the word 'arthritis' and automatically relate it to whatever aches they're having that day. maybe it's egotistical in a sadistic way, but to compare my agony to a backache you're having kind of offends me. when you can't open a bottle of nesquik or turn on the faucets at home, when you can no longer pick up a pencil and draw because your thumb locks, when it hurts to reach up and turn on a lamp or to dress yourself, when you have to contemplate whether or not it's worth the trouble to get out of bed to go the bathroom or to reach for that glass of water or for your cell phone you left on your desk across the room, then you can tell me about your backache. otherwise, shut up.