you learn to cry by smiling, you know?

i recently re-joined netflix, which has once again opened the doors to a plethora of independent and foreign movies for my 'discerning' viewing pleasure (haha....right. i own point break, blue crush and center stage and watch them...often). the first movie i put on my list, the sea inside, is a film i've been wanting to watch since it came out...ok, since it was oscar nominated and i saw clips of it here and there. in the foggy depths of my underused brain, i barely remembered that javier bardem is the star (go watch before night falls if you haven't already. and unless you have been living in seclusion with the amish a la john book, you should know javier from no country for old men). it made me wonder why he didn't win the oscar for this!

anyway.

the sea inside is a true story of assisted suicide. i know, it sounds bleak and depressing, right? this is why i put off watching it for so long. but it was amazing. it was beautiful; i was surprised by it. i haven't been blown away by a movie in a very long time. i can't tell you what i felt other than joy and inspiration. i was crying one moment and laughing the next (i know i sound cheesy). what is it about foreign movies--particularily mexican and spanish (should i just say hispanic? idk. ah! did i just use a chat anagram?! shiver. 'i don't know.' there) movies--that they have the ability to come across as a moving poem? not only the gorgeous cinematography, but the language is so beautiful i wish i could understand it without subtitles...

**seriously, how did eli stone get green-lighted? my god. johnny lee miller what the fuck are you doing? ugh...distracted by stupidity.**

anyway.

i've lost my train of thought. but i have been gushing about this movie to a lot of people, and i only watched it four hours ago. i'm already wanting to own it. that is why i want to marry netflix. it allows you to experience such touching movies as the sea inside which you would normally not rent and, hey, if you want to add the complete voltron series for sheer childhood nostalgic value to your queue, well you can do that as well.