leaving new york never easy, i saw the light fading out

i haven't been catching many z's lately. i could place the blame on the re-introduction of WoW into my life, but that's too easy...and i don't really play it that much for it to be considered guilty of my sleep deprivation. in all actuality, i've always burned the candle at both ends--is that the saying? i don't know. it doesn't make much sense to me seeing as i'm not made of wax. i just like to stay up late and i detest sleeping in; it gives me a headache and makes me a fucking grouch the entire day. it helps that i have to be at work by 6 a.m., so i 'm used to being up super early. it is a rare day that i sleep past 7.

anyway, i am exhausted. i told myself when i got off of work today, i would skip the gym and go take a much needed nap. so what did i do? i went to the gym and ran 6 miles instead of the 4 i usually do, tanned for 10 minutes, went to harris teeter to get sushi (where i was seduced by that evil temptress, vanilla coke), played mah jong and diner dash for a good 2 hours and am now typing this blog.

why can't i sleep? it's not like it's a hard thing for me to do--lying on the bed curled up with my excess of pillows and my lovely down comforter...it sounds amazing. but i always find something better to do...like figure out this damnable phone i just bought. i'd hate to see myself with an iPhone. half of the crap you can do with that thing would be lost on me...hell, half the things my samsung phone can do are lost on me. i just bought it because it was orange :)

i know this is going to sound very stupid and way too sentimental, but putting my old phone "down" was sort of a big deal to me--it was the last link to my ex. we had signed a 2 year contract on the eve of our break-up (i know, smart, right?). i don't know what i'm trying to say, i guess that that part of my life is behind me; i no longer have any ties to him whatsoever. but it's not like we hate each other--life is way too short for petty shit like that. we're actually friends and speak often. i mean we were friends before we even dated so i guess that's why it wasn't (that) difficult a transition from sullen exes to friends. i actually talk to most of the people i worked with at target all those years ago. but yeah. i am so sentimental with everything! is that bad?

okay, so why the hell have they moved lost to 10 p.m.?! i would say that it's too late and i'll be in bed and blah, blah, blah but obviously, from the paragraphs above, i don't sleep.